Last Friday I said goodbye to my little girl for the next two weeks. Some parents in need of break will probably be wondering why I have any complaints about this. Don’t get me wrong if it was a week I wouldn’t, but two weeks is just such a long amount of time to not see her little face, hear that dirty giggle and join in with random and baffling conversations.
There is truth in the fact that I probably do need a break from the responsibility of parenting to be able to fully rest and recoup but unfortunately when you are in this position it never feels like that and actually the apprehension and worry has been a stress in itself. Over the last week I have been adding to a general ‘life’ to do list all the jobs that need doing around the house, the DIY, the trips that need to to be made and basically any job I can turn to in order to stay busy (which defeats the whole object of the break).
My nature isn’t to relax it’s to ‘do’ so given this opportunity to slow down it’s unlikely to actually happen. I want to do silly mundane things like read a whole book, get up to date on social media, walk the dogs more (not things I can’t do with Arabella home) but more just enjoyable things for me to do. Being the absolute fashion addict one big task that needs doing in the next two weeks is going through all my clothes, so that can be a draw/wardrobe a night easily for a week of evenings.
My prediction is that I will be absolutely fine for the fist 4/5 days and then it is going to start getting really hard. Being divorced I am very used to spending time without Arabella but when I say time, we are talking 2/3 days, hence my prediction of the 4/5 day wobble.
Funny isn’t it, we always want what we can’t have. As parents we crave time to ourselves (well me and the friends I have asked do) But as soon as shes gone all I will want to do is eat popcorn and watch movies with her. within a week of Arabella getting back she starts her new school so I think getting on top of life/the house and possibly even starting the attic renovation will be a good thing in the long run. (I just need to keep reminding myself as I walk past her empty bedroom.
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